Mother's Day

I couldn't sleep last night. Well, to be honest with you, I did sleep. I fell asleep between 8:50 P.M. and 9:10 P.M. and woke up around 11:30 P.M. After that I couldn't go back to sleep.
I read most of the night. I finished The Reformed Vampire Support Group by Cathrine Jinks and I started Bliss by Lauren Myracle. I stayed in my room until my ungrateful brother went to bed around 4 A.M. and went into the living room. I got bored sitting in there, so I read outside.
About 6:30 A.M. my mom walked outside for a smoke. I told her "Happy Mother's Day" and tried to have a conversation with her, but it wasn't much of a conversation. I think was ignoring me, but I don't know. It could've been because she was tired.
After she went inside, I walked in about five minutes later. She wasn't in the living room, so I thought she went to take a shower in ther bathroom downstairs because she does that on holidays. Normally waits until about 10.
I had to pee, so I went to the bathroom. When I got out of the bathroom, the house was unusually quiet. I went downstairs and found Mom back in bed. I don't know why, but it angered me. Is it bad that I wanted to sit with my mom in the living room and read?
When I left her room, I fought back tears and the urge to want to strangle her. I was angry, depressed, and alone once again. My brother and sister were fast asleep as well.

How can someone feel so alone with a house full of people?